‘In pain!’ the master lawyer shouts, ‘In pain you must not jest,
To leave me with the all before and longing of the best!’
He stamps his plump feet along, upon the wooden floor,
And reels off a list of nine; the sins I have adored.
‘You pushed a knife right through her chest, you hurt her, dead I say!
You bundled body, you bundled more; you threw her life away!’
And with this, the look of disgust flies across his face
And passes on the jury gone, in their only place.
‘Do you know what you have done?’ he asks with all implore,
‘Befouling and committing murder.’
What careful guilt I bore,
As gavel rests in judge’s hand and jury look in spite
Upon my figure, cowering hence who knew not wrong from right.
‘I know’ I say, in all endure, my voice distinctly low.
I know what I have done,’ I say, ‘I know where I must go.’
With these uneasy words, a thousand eyes then fall
Upon my guilty figure there, cowering by the wall.
The lawyer, then he turns around to see his wistful crowd,
So eager for me put to hell; only then will they be proud.
For I have done what others only dream they can achieve.
Imagine up in careful nightmares of stories I believe.
And the master lawyer, then he settles there.
The jury is beneath his thumb; breathes them like they’re air.
He knows of course that he is all, he knows that he has won;
Receives a healthy sum of money for all that I have done.
And the jury wait with baited breaths, thinking in their minds
How I am not a human more, no member of their kind.
And as for that, their only notion, I’m afraid I must agree
As cameras flash all over me, adhering to my plea.
Because I lost myself one aching night, when hatred ruptured me;
Consigned myself within my mind to not again be free.
Not live without my actions tarnished, not sleep through all the night,
Forever carry consequence of my ill-intended smite.
The master lawyer smiles then as I am put away;
Left for only darkness gone; rot, rot and decay.
His fat cheeks adhere the evil, spread it through my veins,
Boil my blood in harsh regret as I am locked in chains.